18 long months…..
- Of missing Jennie’s cheerful smile
- Of not hearing her girlish giggle
- Of not watching her learning to cook
- Of not listening to her singing
- Of not getting to see her enjoy her school lessons
- Of not giving her or receiving from her hugs and kisses
- Of being in pain
- Of wondering how far will Jana be able to progress physically
- Of being realizing time and again of how catastrophically our lives were changed that icy night
- Of seeing my children grieving and hurting
- Of learning to know a new me
- Of learning to know a different husband
- Of learning to know who my children are becoming
- Of understanding grief is not a neat and tidy thing, not a once and done thing either
- Of crying, some days just teary eyes, other days gut wrenching sobs
- Of learning how wonderful and awesome our bodies are made
- Of learning to know God more intimately
- Of realizing that its ok if I don’t understand everything, God has my best interest on His heart
- Of realizing that a lot of people do care but just don’t know what to say or how to show they care
- Of wondering how will I survive this
- Of realizing the adventure we are on has lots of good pieces in it as well as some very sad and painful parts
