Yesterday I had Jana at the eye doctor. She has been having double vision and headaches at times, and there were times I’d see her eyeballs get shaky or fluttery. Not exactly the medically correct term but I don’t know how else to say it. And I wasn’t exactly wanting to go away yesterday, it was 20 months. And those days are hard. But as always God knows everything. What are the chances that the eye doctor you decide to use, cause its close and your older children used them and liked them; is the only one in Lancaster county that specializes working with brain injury/ eye issues? At least that’s what they said. She said eye therapy would probably help and may change the prescription, so recommended waiting to get glasses to see what eye therapy will do for her. I would guess Jana will still need glasses, it seems our children have inherited their father’s eyes. So it looks like we will be going for eye therapy. Thankfully it can wait til the new year since Jana’s other therapy will be going done to one day a week then. And the eye doctor is only 15 minutes away. The one drawback is they don’t accept our insurance so it will be self pay, but days after our accident God, in a special way, left my dear hubby know that He will take care of us, and He has; so I’m choosing to trust God in this, too.

And today I was at my aunt’s funeral, the first funeral I was at since our daughter’s. Going to viewings and funerals is just not the same as before. I was expecting it to be hard, just not quite as hard as it was. It even rained and I’m pretty sure it was rainy the day of Jennie’s funeral. It just brings back so many memories and makes me realize all over again our losses, our shattered dreams. And again God was there, the pastor said God is bigger than our needs, bigger than any problem we can face. I only need to be aware of His presence in the storm. I was comforted and again reminded God really does know everything about me and loves cares deeply for me. I am His child.