ago yesterday, Jennie was buried. This song by Steven Curtis Chapman is just so beautiful and puts words to some of what we’ve felt the last four years.

We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope. 

And I’m so thankful to Papa God for bringing that hope to us through His Son Jesus. Because of the cross, because of Easter we have HOPE! There have been some deep, deep struggles for me in this journey and just this week I was asked “Where is Jesus as you ache and long to see Jennie again? Don’t you think He just might be right there aching with you?” And I realized again God feels the same things we feel; we are created in His image to have emotions and to feel things, so there is no condemnation in my experiencing the ache, the hurt, the longing I feel when I think of Jennie and what could have been but isn’t. All Papa longs for is for me to turn to Him and allow Him to carry me through these moments, to allow Him to be my comfort in the sadness. So I’ll keep waiting, keep aching, keep hold on and letting go…because of the hope I have in Jesus.