a very beautiful thing happened in our family.
My handsome son
and his lovely bride
were married.
The theme of their wedding was “Jesus- the Light of the World”
JoAnn was one of their candle ladies.
Jana was a program attendant.
In loving memory of Jennie
Jodi and Janessa were gift receivers.
My wonderful children. I love this picture and at the same time I hate this picture. There is one beautiful face missing, Jennie. In every family picture we take I end up finding an empty spot that should have Jennie in it. And as lovely as the wedding and the whole day was there was an indescribable pain right beside the joy and excitement I was feeling watching a dream of my son’s being fulfilled. And I again questioned, “why?” “What was God thinking? to allow the death of our daughter…” It’s one thing I’ll never understand. But just as Jesus is the Light of the world, He is also my Light and Hope. If it weren’t for that unshakable knowing deep in my heart that Jennie is with my Papa God and Jesus and one day I will be with her again, I just couldn’t live through this pain. And They also send me the most awesome messages. I remember the day I was driving to help Stephanie with wedding preparations, I was asking God, “Does Jennie know that Justin is getting married and how does she feel about it?” And just then I saw the vehicle right in front of me had the letters JVE on it’s license plate. You see ever since the accident when the girls and I see a plate with the letter J in it, we come up with a phrase of what Jennie might be doing in heaven. We have come up with some very interesting messages. And the message I heard that day was “Jennie’s Very Excited”. And I knew that Papa God cared about all the mixed up emotions I was experiencing being excited for my son while hurting with missing my daughter. And I knew He was right there dancing in the storm with me.