I sat down to write what was on my mind but my paper looked like this.

But as I looked in my heart I realized it is more like this.

My heart is so full of so many emotions and questions that I feel almost overwhelmed and the words don’t come out in neat sensible sentences. I read somewhere once upon a time that our hearts go through seasons much like the earth does. And right now I feel like I’m in the winter, my heart appears empty, cold and dead; but I have the confidence that in reality God is doing some amazing things in it. I just don’t understand what or how. I haven’t figured out what God is up to. It feels more like chaos than something neat and orderly. It feels more ugly and messy than beautiful. But can I be okay with being in the winter season? What does it look like to dance in the winter? Resting in the belief that God is GOOD and He is a healer and redeemer and He finishes what He starts. And the amazing wonderful thing is- He doesn’t force us to finish, He invites us and draws us with His overwhelming Love. He accepts where we are on our journey, willing to walk beside us if only our hearts our open and sensitive enough to experience His precious presence.